On being yourself
How to discover who you are
The feeling of completeness arrives
when you surrender to the truest version of you:
the deepest part that was crushed in the early
years.The part you didn’t show to the world.
April Green
The part that came here with a life to live.
I’ve had a morning ritual for nine years.
I will be sharing it in detail in my upcoming 5 module embodied writing course for cultivating deep healing, self-love and acceptance.
It is a daily routine that took me from self destruction to self-respect. A daily practice that opened up a dream about writing a book, to a reality of six books, 3 of them on the shelves in Barnes and Noble stores.
It involves energy healing, self-care, and daily writing—a constant shape carved into the air giving me the gift of radical self-acceptance and peace.
Like the daily breaking of bread, it is nourishing and healing.
It deepened a year ago when I became certified in trauma-informed manifestation and root cause therapy. And, further still in September when I created and welcomed a shamanic drum into my world.
“You can’t fake the core. The truth that lives there will always come out.”
—Cheryl Strayed
A song for you:
A few years ago, I learned a hard lesson that I’ve written about in my free eBook. (If you’d like to read it, a copy can be found at the end of this post.)
I desperately needed to embed a much deeper ritual into my life to stay closer to what is true for me—my values, my heart, my self-worth; everything that can shatter in the wrong hands.
If the ground beneath you is ever pulled out from under you, the way back is to root yourself into it even more deeply.
Live from your soul
When you devote your whole self to something you do from the soul, you are alive all the time.
When you cherish the process: your own way of healing and staying close to what is true, you will deepen the relationship you have with yourself and your life.
Even when the content changes. Even when the thoughts change, and the emotions get uprooted along with faded imprints and memories, the ritual somehow holds it all.
When you work with your own energy in your own space, that space becomes sacred.
Insights arise, wisdom weaves its way in, and reminders resurface when you need them the most. Like this one:
whatever is happening on the outside is nearly always reflecting what is happening on the inside.
So, each day becomes an invitation to keep showing up, to keep doing the work.
My ritual brings me joy. The joy brings me vitality, and that vitality brings me to a new earth every day. A place where, after years of hiding who I was, hiding how I felt, and seeking relief from how I felt, I don’t ever have to apologise.
I can be who I am.
My body, the drum, and the air all know what to expect. But the words that arise and leave my lips, the rhythm of my drum and the pen on the page, are never the same.
I drink cacao before I start, and I speak to her. I tell her who I am, thank her for being here and ask her to open my heart a little wider.
When I go away for a few days, I still do my ritual, but new insights arise.
I think taking yourself away from your everyday environment gives you clarity about the changes you wish to make when you return.
Sometimes, you need to go somewhere new
April Green
to see what you’ve left behind a little more
clearly.
I accept who I am. The space I’ve created accepts who I am.
And because of this, I love who I am.
Tender reminder:
When you stand still for long enough, you notice where the magic is. It is within the middle ground where so many, (including me many years ago) fail to see.
How to deepen your daily ritual
When you can cultivate the courage to speak aloud in your ritual space you will be inviting your deeper, most authentic self to speak.
It’s a bit like free writing—you’re allowing a hidden voice to enter the space.
In the process, you’re declaring that it’s safe to be here, it’s safe to be who you are.
The more you embed this into your daily routine, the more you align with and attract authentic communication.
When speaking out loud:
Become aware of how your body responds.
The authentic self is not overly emotional. It is calm and non reactive.
Do you feel open and expansive, or contracted and fearful?
Start to notice and get curious. Drop in somatically and trust that your body will show you any parts that are activated when you speak about your desires.
These parts are afraid of relaxing, afraid they will no longer be able to protect you if you step into a new space. They show up in your day to day life as resistance and procrastination.
Just notice, and meet any contracted energy with compassion.
The goal is for you to harness joy—to be yourself, love yourself, honour yourself; and to cultivate more presence, more stillness, and more gratitude for what you already have.
Reflection:
Until you discover, accept and love who you truly are beneath it all, you will not comfortably step into the life you’re dreaming about.
My upcoming course is available on 4th December on my substack Within.
The course is worth £222 and is only £50 for paid subscribers. Find out more here.
If you would like to know how Root Cause Therapy and Soul Retrieval can help you release your trapped emotions and dis-empowering beliefs, book a free discovery call with me.
It’s an honor to be here sharing my words with you, and I am incredibly grateful for the time you have taken to follow my journey, and read my words. Feel free to keep in touch: hello@aprilgreen.uk
Sending love and light always, April xxx